Family.

Today I have been thinking about my goals, plans, and what I want to accomplish for myself and family one day.  Family to me is very important!  Family doesn't only include people from my immediate blood line, but also close friends that I have.  Throughout my journey in life I have seen many people come and go.  There have been people who have come into my life for a day bringing joy then pain in their absence, and others who have been in my life for many years, where the relationship has been inconsistent, up and down, love and hate, but the end result was always love, these people to me are family.  There have been many times while chasing this vision that I have been down and out, no idea of where to go, no clue of how I was going to manifest my next move or even meal, all I had was prayer & family.  That's why I want to give back to these people in some way for the help and guidance they have done for me in my lifetime, especially my parents & sisters, who have known me for the duration of my life, they have instilled certain teachings in me that have played a big part in the person I am today, and I am forever grateful.  Family is unity, family is loyal, family is not always clear, or positive, but family in the foundation of life, family is love.  We all have family, whether it be your immediate family, friends, or teammates.  My words of advice are to cherish these people, keep them close, but know your boundaries, continue to work and grow in order to help them grow, its a chain reaction.  Have a blessed week!! ;)

Recycling Pain

Have you ever wondered why certain things happen in this life we live, why we come across certain souls we connect with and keep, also souls we connect with and lose?  Have you ever wondered why things sometimes just do not turn out the way we expected or planned...?  Have you every wondered why we feel happiness and also pain..?
There are many different elements that make up our reality on this earth, many different emotions we experience time and time again, it is sort of like a cycle that we can not escape, but can adapt to.  To recycle something means to "convert waste into reusable material".  Therefore pain is something that we will feel at some points in life numerous times, but we have the control mentally to overcome that pain and turn it into something positive.  I have experienced many different things in life that have brought tremendous pain, and have broken me.  One day after prayer, I had an inner revelation that gave me the wisdom of turning pain into power, or recycling the waste of pain into something positive.  Do not let the pain of your day to day life determine your future, it will come to pass, use that hurt and transform it into positivity, positivity and love will alway conquer the illusion of pain.  Recycle, and overcome!

The Artist

   I view everything as an art, something that was created in the obsessive mind of an intelligent man or women.  If you really think about the world and society we live in, and the objects we use on a day to day basis, it was all created from a thought, which then turned into a plan, then manifested into its reality.  This is art!  

   Art usually brings creativity, which then brings adversity.  You see when we put our minds to achieve a particular outcome or goal, many things will block that vision or try and stray your mind away from what it is you want to achieve.  The reason for this is because majority of the time, as an artist, you are considered an outsider, you do not follow the crowd, your thoughts on life and the way things should be are often different from your peers.  This is when the negative side of the mind begins to talk you out of your art, tries to force you out of the amazing things we are capable of creating, but this negative and distracting voice can be tamed, it can be overpowered with positive affirmations and thoughts.  I have experienced this inner voice plenty of times on my journey, but the power of love, positivity, and prayer instantly diminish the negative. To conclude my thought; every one of us are creative artists in our own way, we all have the ability to be great, so continue to build your vision and dream, stand on it with strength and determination, no matter what obstacles come in the way, dare to be different, take a leap of faith and live your dreams! #Theartists #Godisgood #blckspyder #futbol #love

Passion & Pain.

Does pain come with passion....?

Passion is described as "strong and barely controllable emotion".  I am a person who always follows my passion, my heart, my instincts, and at times it has turned out great, and exactly how I anticipated, the other times very terrible, leading to horrifying pain.  When this pain arrives I do not know how to react, I will pretend and try to act as if everything is okay, because in my mind I am a positive person, think positive get positive, right?  But what happens when you do all that and the outcome is still not what you expected.....Throughout my life and football career I have experienced this pain with my passion, and it always comes at the worst time, but truly the best time, its a funny thing to explain.  I have suffered a few minor setbacks in my career right when I got the feeling everything was about to take off, right when I got the feeling that I was on the rise to finding my "zone" my element of dominance.  The lesson I have gained from this is that, these pains that come with my passion are there to humble me and remind me of my faith, and the power of God and the universe, it allows me to turn to prayer, to be more aware of the situation, to mentally and physically try to find a solution, it allows me to remember why I began this mission in life, and not to get caught up in the future or end result of what I want, to take one step at a time, the pain always brings clarity, I must let go.  But, the pain does not last forever. The pain comes, brings the lessons that we are suppose to learn, and then disappears.  The passion on the other hand still remains, always burning like a fire, the more gasoline you pour on it the brighter the flames, but if you do not watch it and nurture it, it fades away.  "When pursuing a passion accept the pain, learn from the pain, do not give it the power to out-shadow the passion, the pain will subside, keep the passion flames blazing." - AJ Gray

The Middle, The Mud.

I have't written a blog in awhile, so here it is.

I have been thinking about this journey of mine that I am travelling in life. After speaking with a good friend, and with a specific female I used to date, and share a deep soul connection with, the topic of our "visions" came up.  We spoke about what we saw for each other, and for ourselves individually, so both relationship goals, and personal goals, I noticed something very vague about the discussion, something that struck my mind instantly.  I noticed that, when I planted the ideas in my mind about what I wanted to accomplish in life, I was only shown a projection of what the beginning would look like & feel like, and also what I wanted the end result to look & feel like, then off of this vision I began trying to manifest my idea.  The funniest thing about my visions/goals, were that I never had an idea of what the middle would be like. I never knew what I had to go through and endure in order to get to where I wanted, this applied to my football journey and relationships, the beginning was always sweet, and my foreseen end was even sweeter, but that middle section is where the trials and tribulations came about, where the confusion came about, where the mistakes came about, where the pain/heartbreak came about, where the tears came about, but I realized the middle was the unseen blessing. Without the lessons learned in the middle of our journey, we wouldn't be where we are today.  God is good.  To conclude, my message is this;  No matter what you are going through in life,  remember that it will come to pass, we all experience both sides of an experience, the good & the bad, get through the middle and the sun will be shining on the other side.  God Bless!!

New!

For the past two years, my career has been up and down, trial after trial, excuse after excuse, lesson after lesson, failure after failure, flight after flight, the list goes on for miles.  I remember times being in a foreign country broke, with no money, no place to sleep, no food, lost and somehow a way was always provided. Last week I signed a contract with Fc Haka, one of the biggest football clubs in Finland, with an amazing history, a club of prestige and success, the club that agreed terms with me, and has given me a place to display my talents to the world, and be a part of their family.  The stress and doubts before signing the contract began to manifest, because the wait has been soooooooo long, the journey has been so blurred, with many unknown situations, many people promising opportunities they couldn't deliver, many false words, a lot of emptiness.  Prior to coming back to Finland, I was in England, and a friend of mines told me to "let go" of the situation, stop trying to control everything, that there was a bigger force than me, a greater power than you and I, that will bring forth the things I wished for when the time is right.  Now I am here, an Fc Haka player! When signing the contract, a weight off of my shoulders disappeared, the focus instantly changed, my visions got brighter, my goals seemed reachable, it's time, my time!  The funniest thing about this opportunity, is that it fits perfectly with my values and morals as a man, this club is everything I represent, and is the perfect place to go after these goals I have, both as an individual and with my team. I am forever grateful!!!!  I'll leave you with this; have faith in what you desire in life, despite your physical circumstance, everything will manifest in the correct time. God, the universe, is perfection, what you need, at the correct time will be provided in order to propel you forward, have faith/belief in your journey.  #Blackspyder #positivevibrations #FcHaka #Glory2God

Twenty7

Wow Wow Wow, haha it is an absolute joy to be here, at this age in life, time waits for no man lol. The past twenty four hours for me have been very good, amongst the company of great people, in a good head space, and in good spirits, my twenty seventh birthday has been very positive and relaxing. I had a long day to do some reflecting, whether it was going for a walk by the water, or in my hotel room working on some projects I have planned, watching football, listening to music, a few thoughts were constantly on my mind, maybe it comes with age :)  The thought that really stood out to me was the fact that so much has happened in my life, and the lessons I have learned, money, and love. I am at a point in my life where I am seeking a sense of stability in everything I do, from my football career to my relationships, down to even my thoughts.  If anything in my life at this point seems shaky or unsure, I do not want to be involved with it. I think its mainly because the past few years have been up and down, a lot of risk being taken, a lot of trials and tribulations, a lot of loss, it's time to win.  I am so blessed to make it to this age, my cousin Omari Chambers, who I refer to as my brother, was born on April 10th, 1988, two days before me. So every year since the day we were born we celebrated our birthdays together, but unfortunately he isn't here in the physical, he passed away three years ago.  For this very reason, around this time of year, I do a lot of reflecting and give nothing but thanks for being alive today, and doing what I love in life. I am forever grateful.  So twenty seven has been an eye opener, another blessing, beauty! Thank you all for the kind words and love you expressed on this day.  #blackspyder #27 #bigman #primetime